Sometimes life can be so....

Good.

~I'm blessed with an amazing husband. He understands me most of the time, and sometimes he doesn't. I guess that's the way it works! Even when my hormones are raging he seems to know when to steer clear of me...or to give me hug. He is a wonderful father too. He loves to take Wade on rides on the motorcycle or lawn mower. He even takes him on mundane errands just to get him out of the house...for me:)

~My son is the next good thing. Even when he tests my patience, I know the isn't doing it on purpose! He is just a little man. He has been such a good companion this summer. His vocabulary is increasing daily. He has kicked his binky addiction and learned to use the big boy potty. He is almost completely potty trained after about half the summer. I am happy that I don't have to change poopy pants anymore! I think Shane is too! He is off to day care in two weeks. We went to visit on Monday and he loved it. The kids were all gone to play at the nearby elementary school playground, but we got to see the room and the outdoor play area. He enjoyed both of those. Hopefully, the first week or two goes smoothly. I know I'm going to cry.

~I feel like I've finally found a friend in Taylorville. I've known Amy for a while (all the time we've lived here), but we are just now connecting and spending time together. She is the first person here I just call on a whim to chit chat with. I've missed having a girlfriend to do that with. I think it helps that we both have 2 year olds.



Bad.
~I'm still stuck on having a miscarriage. It doesn't help that Shane says no more kids. I'm not sure if that is a definite forever answer? or just for now? I want at least one more child. Two would be even better, but I'm not pushing my luck at this point. I'm in a pretty big funk at this point. Having to go back to work isn't helping much.

~going back to work stinks. I don't want to work, and seeing my schedule makes me want to go back even less. I guess I get like this every year. I just hate it! Then I end up getting into the groove and it all seems to be ok.

~family. I am not a big fan of any part of my family right now. (not Shane and Wade). I'm just tired of them. I'll stop at that for now.

Update

I should update even though no one reads. A month ago (5 weeks today), I went to the dr. and he didn't find a heartbeat. I had lost the baby. I had a D&C 2 days later. It's been tough...even now to deal with the loss of our baby. Tough probably doesn't describe it really. One thing that does help is my boy, Wade. His smile is enough to make me wash away the tears and the blues...

School starts soon. 'nough said.